Tales of a Secret Rockstar

I went away this weekend.
To Williams Lake. It was really great.
I love the people there,
I love playing music.
Hence the name change for this site.

Many random thoughts flew through my mind since the last time I blogged:

1. I fear that I will not be able to graduate. I've had the shittiest semester of my life (between my Grandpa dying over Christmas break and me almost dying a month later). I've had no focus, no purpose, nothing. I guess the whole world can't stop for my problems, but maybe I should at least start sharing them more?

2. Cute girls are just too much effort at this point. I got to that point of insecurity around this girl that I was interested in, where I started trying to get her attention all the time, and I was always wondering what she was thinking. I realized then that it just wasn't worth it. I'm tired of that insecurity. Maybe it's normal, but even then, I just don't need that right now.

3. I was thinking about God alot this weekend, since I was doing this ministry thing in Williams Lake. Here's one of the main things I thought about, which I was surprised to find mentioned in a few of the books I've perused lately (ie. Reaching for the Invisible God by Philip Yancey). We were singing this song in Chapel on Wednesday, and some of the main words were simply "Change me." An admirable thing to ask, but it got me thinking. I think I ask God to change me too much. It's like I'm sometimes asking God to change my personality. It's like I get the idea that sin is part of my personality. I don't think that's true. Maybe, in reality, alot of people hide behind their sin.
Okay, I'm leaving this unfinished because I need more time to think it over. I'll probably turn this part into a separate entry.

Later