Tales of a Secret Rockstar

Today was my birthday. I am 21 years old. There was a party. At my house. We watched a movie. And ate food. Then people went home.

We had a big family prayer session before I went back to school. Man, I love having a family that prays, although it can be a little intimidating sometimes. They prayed all kinds of great stuff for me, which was really cool. Encouraging things, like how God will use me to speak into people's lives and stuff. Like specifically into people's lives. I don't know if I've ever had any "words of knowledge" or anything like that . . . I don't even really like talking about it. That's such a sensitive area that I've seen people manipulate before. But that doesn't make it illegitimate. I guess I'm just realizing that I have alot of church related issues to work through. I want to be open to God's gifts in my life, so yeah, I'm not writing anything off.

My parents also talked about the stuff I've gone through in my life in a really interesting way. They compared it to a kind of sifting, I guess like a preparation for things ahead maybe. They believe, and I think I agree, that the devil has really tried to get to me. Seriously tried to mess me up I guess. It feels weird to say that certain things are the work of the devil, but I do believe in him, so if he exists I imagine he would want to do things to foil God's plans, including God's plans for my life specifically. I think the devil tries to get to everyone. Anyways, I've been sort of feeling that, like I'm coming out of a phase in my life. And I'm coming out on top somehow. Not necessarily unscathed, but definitely not dead. It doesn't really feel like that right now, since I've been asking myself all these really hard questions. But I'm facing things, and that's what really counts. They prayed for boldness for me, which is something I have been working on. I'm starting to speak my mind, which they might not always like. It is a good thing though.

Then, they prayed for a wife.