Tales of a Secret Rockstar

I've decided that I need to perform. I've been playing drums for around 8 years now, and I'm finding myself not being challenged by church/chapel gigs. I think in reality though, I just can't handle trying to spiritualize music anymore. Not just my music, but the music we sing in church in general. So much of the songs we sing I could imagine singing to a girlfriend more than I could imagine singing them to God. So I feel like I'm a part of this show that's not allowed to be a show. I want to play my best, but I want people to focus on God. Then that makes me think about the whole worship experience . . .

Is the church appropriating the emotional power of music and spiritualizing it?
Is there something legitimately spiritual about the music we sing and play in church?
How come when we dance to music in church it's worship, but when we dance the same way to a secular song it's different somehow . . . perhaps some would even say wrong?

I remeber at my grad cruise when a bunch of people were jumping around to some AC/DC song. I remember feeling so spiritual because I would only dance like that in church. I think if I had the chance to go back I would totally dance . . . I like AC/DC sometimes.

I guess I find most Christian music completely uninspiring. It's like God gave so many Christians gifts of writing, arranging, playing music, and they just copy whatever is popular in the secular world and throw Christian lyrics on it. I think Christians have legitimate things to say. Not just relating to religion either. I mean we have legitimate things to say musically. And lyrically. So many Christian songs are so shallow, and they always treat the same "God" topics. Do Christians not fall in love? Do we not experience heartbreak? Or anger? Or perhaps (God forbid) fear?

I think this is why I really like In Medias Res alot.